Tuesday, September 22, 2009

getting ahead of myself

I had a truly frightening thought while I was delirious on codeine cough syrup - I'm going to be 40 in 19 months. 40! 30 didn't bother me. I was almost relieved to reach my 30s, but 40 is a different story. At least I still look 25 :)

Anyway...part of my midlife crisis was the decision to go to grad school regardless of location or funding (the regardless of funding part is pure delusion - funding is a huge issue!). Right now the contenders are: University of Wisconsin, University of Manchester, UK and University of Sydney, Australia. U of Wisc has one of the leaders in the field, if not THE leader in the US, for what I want to study - Enlightenment v. Nazi views of Jews as citizens - so that's my #1 pick for now, but studying European history in Europe would be cool. I was surprised that Australia would even have a Jewish Studies program since there aren't many Jews there, but who am I to complain? I think I need to visit the school!

Also an issue in my freakout was the looming loneliness of being single, but I have accepted my life as a spinster (or whatever the proper term would be for the modern era). I plan to enjoy the single life by seeing the world and having experiences I wouldn't be able to have if I was tied down to a family. Hopefully this will quiet the biological clock and repress the envy I have of my friends with families. And maybe I can even make them envious of me :)

Ok, midlife crisis post over.

Sunday, September 13, 2009


I had planned to blog tonight, but I feel like crap.  I spent the weekend at my mom's with her cats. Have I mentioned I'm allergic to cats?  Very allergic!  It's not enough she went to Jackson without me, she had to try to kill me with cat dander!  Anyway...look forward to a post later this week. I'm hoping that if I publicly declare that I'm going to post something this week, I'll actually do it. Who wants to take bets?

Thursday, September 10, 2009


Is anyone still out there?

The summer is over, and I accomplished very little on my to do list. Now I'm accomplishing very little class work, but at least I'm consistent! This semester marks my 20th year as an undergrad. I'm so ready to be finished with this damn degree! Only 2 more semesters after this!

Okay, that's all for now. Time to order CDs for the library.